Thankful Thursday: Titus 2

Tonight I was going to go ahead and write tomorrow's Thankful Thursday's post all about God's conviction and what a blessing it is along with His grace. Before I got started I started reading some other blog posts from today and wow did I get what I needed. See God's conviction is great but His grace is bigger.


My Media Monday goals are just going ok. They started out great but today I fell again (no surprise there). Last night I stayed up way to late and edited my wedding photos. I have been married for almost 6 years and have been unhappy with them this whole time until a friend helped me figure out some simple ways to edit them to make the look nicer and I was so excited to have wedding photos that I loved and would be proud to display that I worked until almost 1am to get them done. Of course that was not nearly enough time so what did I do today...well I worked on them again way to much. I didn't get any Bible time today, no teaching time with Rex, didn't get the house cleaned or the laundry that the hubs needs for work tomorrow done. 


All day I have been feeling this pull. Someone saying very gently "Come on let's go do this instead" and I would simply reply back "Yes God I know you want me to be doing other things but I'm so excited about how nice my photos look I just have to keep working." Well that's what I did. I worked and worked and worked on the wrong things. Having nice photos to display of my wedding isn't going to mean much if I end up divorced. I mean I learned my lesson about hiring a crappy photographer so maybe better luck next time. The problem is I don't want a next time. I don't want to make my husband unhappy or have our child grow up in a divorced family. I want the Godly home that God has called me to create but I was sucked in on the computer. 


So although I have about 1/2 of my wedding photos done I have decided that I'm not going to work on them tonight. Nope! I got home from a church group and everyone was in bed and the house was still a mess. I started cleaning. I got all the toys picked up, the dishes done, kitchen cleaned, the laundry is now in the dryer for the hubs for tomorrow for work and I'm waiting up for it to be dry so that I can head upstairs and quietly hang up all the shirts so they are ready for him in the morning. 


My conviction was that I still needed to do my job whether I did it during the day when I had the time and was suppose to be doing it or whether I stay up late to make sure it gets all done before tomorrow morning. So although I was convicted I want to make sure that everyone knows that I never felt guilty for what I was doing. God never made me feel guilty for wanting the wedding photos to look nice. He understands! He gave me the grace to work through my day. I have felt guilt before when this has happened but it's when I don't include God in it. Today I was telling God, "I know what I'm suppose to do but for whatever reason I can't. Please forgive me and help me to do better." Well he did and without guilt. Guilt is of this world not of His world. He will gently guide us through what we are walking through and not cause us pain. We will be at peace as long as we include God in our daily life. 


So today I have a few things. One I'm going to memorized Titus 2:3-5. I think that I need to remember what God has called on me to do.

Similarly, teach the older women to live in a way that honors God. They must not slander others or be heavy drinkers. Instead, they should teach others what is good. These older women must train the younger women to love their husbands and their children, to live wisely and be pure, to work in their homes, to do good, and to be submissive to their husbands. Then they will not bring shame on the word of God. 

Second, I'm not going to work on the wedding photos until Monday. I'm going to focus my time with my family and on my household responsibilities. Monday and Tuesday I will have some extra free time because the hubs is heading out of state for work for a couple of days so this is the time that I can focus on something like editing wedding photos. 

Oh one more thing, I want to find myself a homemaker mentor and I think I know just the person. I'm going to send an email and see if she is willing to help teach me and grow in this area. I'm excited to be able to get some support from someone who has been doing this for over 18 years. I'm sure she will have lots of guidance for me!


 If you want more about where I got this from check out Raising Mighty Arrows