We have been crazy busy around here like I have said in past posts to why I haven't been posting much lately. However things seem to just be getting more and more crazy.
Tomorrow my hubby leaves with Rex to head over to the state of Oklahoma. His grandpa is dying and he wants to visit him one last time. We were lucky that his dad stepped up and offered to buy tickets after not talking for 6 years. I'm very grateful that he did this. I'm very disappointed though because Miah really wanted us to go as a whole family and I didn't get a ticket bought for me. I know he wanted me out there to be there to support him and now I'm going to have to do it from home. I'm hoping that having his sister there with him will help him through this difficult time and help take care of Rex since I won't be there to do that either.
I am a little nervous about what is going to happen when he's away from me. I completely trust my husband one hundred percent but I also know that we are different and that he will not do everything the way I would do it. This is completely fine but I worry none the less. I just keep thinking that something is going to happen and I won't be there for him. I also worry because I feel like my hubby is going to be so distracted with saying good-bye that he's not going to pay enough attention to Rex. This goes back to something happening and I'm not there to help or comfort Rex.
Before you think I'm a crazy overprotective mom (which I totally am at times) I haven't post much about this yet but Rex has a blood disorder and if he gets hurt or gets certain viruses then it's hospital stays and blood transfusions. This is where my worry comes from. I'm the one that knows all that information. I'm the one that knows how to check to see if his spleen is enlarged. I'm the one that knows what he looks like when he might need to have his blood checked. I have also been the one that has been to every doctor appointment, every blood draw, every test. His daddy struggles with this and can't stay in the room when these things happen (and I couldn't have imagined that I would be able to before all this happened but God gave me the strength to do it) and if something happens and I'm not there, then what?
OK enough of that and all my worry. I have 3 days that I'm going to be completely home by myself with no husband or child to care for. Which means my whole life is going to change for those days. I won't have a little boy kicking his door in the morning to let me know he's up and to get out of bed. No one to cook for or clean up after. I really don't know what I'm going to do with my time. I know that I have a bunch to get done. Our house is slowly getting back in order again after family visiting and I'm finally starting to recover from it too. But truly what motivates me every morning to get up and get stuff done is that little monkey and all his energy. My hubby has traveled before so I know what it is like to not have him home every night. I will miss him too of course but this isn't something completely new to us.
So this quick trip is going to be a challenge I think for all 3 of us. Rex has never been away from me, Daddy has never taken him away before and been completely responsible for him, and Mommy has never had this much time alone for as long as I can remember. Any suggestions for what I should do to keep myself busy? Anyone want to come and keep me entertained while I'm busy working on my housework?
Tomorrow my hubby leaves with Rex to head over to the state of Oklahoma. His grandpa is dying and he wants to visit him one last time. We were lucky that his dad stepped up and offered to buy tickets after not talking for 6 years. I'm very grateful that he did this. I'm very disappointed though because Miah really wanted us to go as a whole family and I didn't get a ticket bought for me. I know he wanted me out there to be there to support him and now I'm going to have to do it from home. I'm hoping that having his sister there with him will help him through this difficult time and help take care of Rex since I won't be there to do that either.
I am a little nervous about what is going to happen when he's away from me. I completely trust my husband one hundred percent but I also know that we are different and that he will not do everything the way I would do it. This is completely fine but I worry none the less. I just keep thinking that something is going to happen and I won't be there for him. I also worry because I feel like my hubby is going to be so distracted with saying good-bye that he's not going to pay enough attention to Rex. This goes back to something happening and I'm not there to help or comfort Rex.
Before you think I'm a crazy overprotective mom (which I totally am at times) I haven't post much about this yet but Rex has a blood disorder and if he gets hurt or gets certain viruses then it's hospital stays and blood transfusions. This is where my worry comes from. I'm the one that knows all that information. I'm the one that knows how to check to see if his spleen is enlarged. I'm the one that knows what he looks like when he might need to have his blood checked. I have also been the one that has been to every doctor appointment, every blood draw, every test. His daddy struggles with this and can't stay in the room when these things happen (and I couldn't have imagined that I would be able to before all this happened but God gave me the strength to do it) and if something happens and I'm not there, then what?
OK enough of that and all my worry. I have 3 days that I'm going to be completely home by myself with no husband or child to care for. Which means my whole life is going to change for those days. I won't have a little boy kicking his door in the morning to let me know he's up and to get out of bed. No one to cook for or clean up after. I really don't know what I'm going to do with my time. I know that I have a bunch to get done. Our house is slowly getting back in order again after family visiting and I'm finally starting to recover from it too. But truly what motivates me every morning to get up and get stuff done is that little monkey and all his energy. My hubby has traveled before so I know what it is like to not have him home every night. I will miss him too of course but this isn't something completely new to us.
So this quick trip is going to be a challenge I think for all 3 of us. Rex has never been away from me, Daddy has never taken him away before and been completely responsible for him, and Mommy has never had this much time alone for as long as I can remember. Any suggestions for what I should do to keep myself busy? Anyone want to come and keep me entertained while I'm busy working on my housework?
Kari, I'm praying for you now to have confidence and peace as they travel without you.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much! So far they are doing good after a 2 hour late take off last night. I'm doing ok too. Just cleaning the house and enjoying some Way FM!
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