Little Okie Homestead

I was emailed this and really felt that it needed to be passed on. Please enjoy this as I'm sure that many moms have felt this way and that we can all use this story for encouragement! It all began to make sense, the blank stares, the lack of response, the way one of the kids will walk into the room while I’m on the phone and ask to be taken to the store. Inside I’m thinking, ‘Can’t you see I’m on the phone?’ Obviously not; no one can see if I’m on the phone, or cooking, or sweeping the floor, or even standing on my head in the corner, because no one can see me at all. I’m invisible. The invisible Mom. Some days I am only a pair of hands, nothing more! Can you fix this? Can you tie this? Can you open this??  Some days I’m not a pair of hands; I’m not even a human being. I’m a clock to ask, ‘What time is it?’ I’m a satellite guide to answer, ‘What number is the Disney Channel?’ I...

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There are some days, like the one I'm having today, that makes having faith a hard thing to trust in. I have shared before that my hubby doesn't want any more kids and that I do. I have always felt that we would have four kids and I have been counting on God to provide us the kids He wants us to have. Today I took Goose to the hematologist to get his blood checked to find out if he has the same blood disorder as Monkey. With Monkey we knew when he was just a few months old what he had but didn't get the actual diagnosis until he was a year old. With Goose they tested him after birth and everything was fine. He has been developing on track and showing no signs of HS. At Goose's last check up they did a blood draw to test for everything again as a final make sure everything is OK  blood test. Well it came back with some abnormalities. I figured everything was fine that they were just being over cautious and made an appointment with our hematologist. Well that was to...

Its nearing the one year anniversary of the death of someone who I was extremely close with. I'm struggling big time with so many different feelings but mostly sadness and some guilt. There are moments when I just want to break down and cry. There are moments when I'm overtaken with a memory. I can't sleep well, my moods are all over place, and it seems like I can't control much of anything. Then once I start to think about a memory the guilt sets in. It's for so many different things. Not being able to visit more when times were getting bad, Goose missing out on getting to know his grandma, and not being able to get the closure of a final goodbye because I was in the hospital with my new baby. I have never felt these feelings before. I know it is depression at least in a mild form. I have no clue how to handle it. To top it all off the stress of moving and unpacking, the stress of another possible huge change in our family, and then planning Goose's fi...

Monkey is so cute! He just woke up from his nap and told me this... "Mommy my legs kinda hurt. When I sleep and sleep and sleep all the power comes up (while moving his hand from by his legs up to his head) and out of me (which apparently makes his legs hurt) and I think I might need to cuddle for a little bit." Now remember that this is all with a sleepy voice too! It was soooo cute!